Adopting new positive habits.

I am going to write in this post about some new habits I obtained in the last few month that helped me improve my life.
But first I am going to explain a little bit what brought me to do so, and then I will explain what the salad (in the picture) has to do with all of it.

In the beginning of 2015, right after I turned 30 the previous month I was diagnosed with breast cancer. The cancer was taken out by surgery. Then I had chemotherapy, biological treatment combined with chemotherapy and radiation therapy.
During and after chemo, my body (and mind) went through a lot, therefore I was prescribed medical marijuana which I still use. I still have side effects, such as pain all over my body (not always at the same time), some neurological fuck up that keeps me awake at night because it makes me feel like I am getting electrocuted. Sometimes it is hard for me to eat, sleep, exist, both mentally and physically.
Basically, it is a vicious cycle where I feel bad physically, it makes me feel bad mentally, which makes me feel even worse, etc. I will write about all of that some other time.

Anyway, I suddenly realized that my morning routines are, well, horrible, my days are not productive and I sink more and more into depression.

Wake up at whenever usually tried to do so before, 11 am. Rot in bed while checking out facebook, news site and such. Then crawl out of the room to go to the bathroom and shower (sometimes I would shower much later, before leaving the house). As some of you probably know brushing teeth while depressed can be as hard as climbing a mountain. So, sometimes I did and sometimes I didn’t. I would then go to the living room and drink coffee, straight on empty stomach and get a smoke from my medical weed (I really need this in the morning, but to do so on an empty stomach is bad and stupid). It took me forever to get ready because I sunk into the couch and into the depression while watching crime documentary and other nasty shit first thing in the morning. I don’t think I need to continue, you probably get the picture. And by the time I was ready to get out to the world and do the things I must do, I’d notice that I just wasted a great amount of time, energy, life, health on shit.

I realized that everything is up to me and started looking up for motivational videos to find out how to fix my life.
I learned that morning routine is a good start and started checking out different videos each was suggesting ideas for morning routines. (check out this guy for some good motivational videos)

Here some that I picked up, and now I do them almost every day.
1. Don’t check your social media and news for at least an hour after you wake up;
At that time we are still somewhere close to our subconscious, news and social media contain a lot of negativity that gets stuck in our brain for the whole day, setting our mind to feel negative.

2. Go straight to the shower and don’t forget to finish it with some cold water.
It helps us to wake and feel new, fresh and energetic. I also added for myself not to get out of the bathroom before I’m done with the shower, brushing teeth, fixing hair and applying makeup if I chose to do so that day.

3. Only after that and after I get dressed (or at least after I chose what I am going to wear that day) I go to the kitchen and drink a glass of water with some lemon juice, and another glass or two (or three) of just plain water. Also, I try to eat something small before I consume my coffee and have my medical smoke.

This is all for my morning routine at the moment, I tried to add more positive habits to it, but it is best to learn one or two, make them stick and then to move on to learning new things.

What about the salad? I just came home with a positive vibe, although yesterday wasn’t a good day, and today started kind of awkward. I decided not to dwell on it but do something positive and good for myself and ate some fresh veggies (cucumber, tomato, lettuce, onion, vegan spicey cheese, corn, himalayan salt, ground pepper mix, oil mix, lemon juice).

Oh, this is one of my five cats, guarding my salad. <3

First Post.

My ultimate goal in starting a blog is becoming a happy, productive, self-confident unicorn being.

I thought that after being through some hard things in my life I started losing it. Turned out that I already lost it ages ago.
I signed into an old twitter account to clean it and start a new one, where I found my tweets from over 6 years ago, things like “How to be happier?” “Why life is so confusing”.

But reasons don’t matter now, what matters is how I get myself up and become what  I want to be; which I don’t know yet.
In my search for happiness, I recently found out that people who take pictures of their lives constantly are happier. So next time you get annoyed by another photo of a fancy coffee cup or delicious looking sushi uploaded by your friend, think; maybe you are just jealous?

This blog is going to be my journey to happiness, and like any other person who thinks that the sun shines out of their ass, I hope I can inspire other people on a similar journey.